bozablog: December 2004

Ever find yourself being snapped out of a wierd daydream of what you would say at somebody's funeral??

Why does this happen?

I'm in the car thinking about my friend in Rolla I need to call, which leads me to think of Damien, the boy I used to tudor in Springfield and that I should call him up while I'm in town to see him, because I miss him, and man...What if he moved away? I should have called last time I was in town...Why didn't I call? What if something happened to him? Would anyone have called me from Springfield to let me know? Would I go to his funeral? Of course! I would have to go to his funeral. I couldn't miss it! And I would have to speak, say something, about how sweet he was even though I wanted to strangle him sometimes for being such a brat, but he was like a little brother to me, and I remember one time when went to Target and he asked me to help him pick out a Valentine's box of candy for his teacher and then when we got back to my car he said, Surprise! It's for you! And I was so touched that he-

"Katy?"
"....Huh? Oh...What?"

And then you're suddenly back to reality thinking WHYYYYYYYYY was I thinking about THAT? How in the heck did I go from thinking of my best friend in Rolla to practicing my hypothetical eulogy for Damien's funeral! What is going on here????

Must be the holiday stress. Though I shouldn't complain..it was a warm and delicious 68 degrees today in sunny Springfield. Jealous anyone?

-listening to N.E.R.D.

Ho Ho Ho

And it is Thursday already....boy, this week of mayhem has just flown by! And now it is waaaay too early in the morning and I am up because I have to sub (AGAIN!) for one of the teachers at school and she has the early shift. And can I just say for the record that I hate, HATE getting up early.

But being a teacher sure has its perks right around Christmas time. I thought maybe I'd get a few cards drawn by the kids, maybe a mom would bake us all some cookies, you know, nothing big or crazy. Well, so far to date...I have received the most unbelievable things! Two moms brought us in danishes and a big 7-up cake for all the teachers...very delicious. Then, another mom gave me a $25 gift card to Barnes and Noby! (I know! Seemed overly generous. I mean her son has 4 teachers!) That same day another mom gave me a $25 gift card for Lettuce Entertain You! Then another mom gave each teacher a pound of gourmet chocolate covered toffee...with the little nuts...ooooh, so heavenly.

And when I thought it couldn't get any better, yesterday a mom came in whose daughter I also babysit for from time to time, and she gave us each little Christmas cards. Now...I'm not sure what was in anyone else's card, but in mine was a big ole' check for fifty smackers! $50! Who in the heck writes a check to a teacher for $50??? The awesome moms at my school, that's who!

Oh and just wait until I tell you about what big present I got last night! But I don't have time right now. I must get ready and then today at 2pm we are leaving for Springfield, Mo. Another long day in the car. But it will be nice to have a whole week off to just relax.

Two more shopping days until Christmas!!!!!!

I'm so tired of wrapping presents..when will the madness end??!!

Ahhhhh....The weekend is here. Thank the good Lord. Although, this little lass will be spending a lot of the time worrrrkin' on an Irish dialect for my audition Sunday night. Raven Theater is putting on Dancing at Lughnasa and they called me in! What's funny is that in January I have an audition for the Bailiwick theater and I'll need to have a Hispanic accent.

Tonight I'm going to a holiday wine party, where everyone invited brings a bottle of wine, then we all sample them, not knowing who's wine came from whom. Then we all sort of vote on the best wine and that person wins a big, fat prize. Guess who's gonna win the big, fat prize this year? ME! Mwa-ha-ha-ha-ha!

Grrrrrr, I have too much Christmas shopping left to do. I started early but got 1/2 done for my family, and 1/2 done for Cory's family, so I don't have a group completely done. And my family's presents have to be bought, wrapped and mailed by Saturday and I am craving quiche. Mmmmm....quiiiiiiche.

Time to shop.

Happy Friday!

Place your hand on my heart and your wish on my hips,
Sit still, my friend, Occasional confidante
Let's get lost in this, lost in this.

Yea-aaa-aaaaaaaaaaay! It's fridaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! This week has just gone on and on and now it is almost over....almost because someone (that being me) has to go to the ghetto mat this morning before work. But it shouldn't be crowded like last time, so I'll bring the new book I'm reading, Devil in a White City, and hopefully the time will go by quickly and there won't be any Latino guys there staring me down.

Got a call from the Bailiwick Theater yesterday. I sent in my headshot for a show they are doing in the Spring and they called me in for an audition. Fancy, eh? I'm quite excited. And that, folks, is all my news.

The ghetto mat awaits!

-listening to No Ordinary Love by Sade

P.S. Cory is doing just fine. He's going to see his regular doctor next week for a follow up.

Anyone else ready to call it a week already?

I spent all Sunday night until 2 am in th ER with Cory. He had another heart scare. They sent him home with a clean bill of health but it's still stressful as it is not the first time he's ended up in the ER with the same symptoms.

And all that made Monday a very long day and now it is Tuesday and rainy- which I love- but it makes me want to just stay on the couch and read a good book and order in some delicious food, none of which will be happening today or anytime soon. I have to babysit tonight directly after work, so today is going to be an even longer day. Boy, don't I sound cheery? I'm actually not in a bad mood at all, just tired. Tired and in need of a big bowl of Fruity Pebbles. Mmmmm.

-listening to the Pumpkins

P.S. I did see Closer Friday night and it was very good, although as usual the movie ending was quite different than the script ending.

Friday it is...

I was up until after 2 am working on this blasted newsletter for my preschool. It took forever because, one, I had just started last night, and two, I had to do it on the mac which I don't normally use. Ahhh, what a night...and its not even done! My director needs to add something to it and, blah..I just want it finished already. Why do I volunteer for these things???

And now it is morning. I should be doing laundry right now at the ghetto mat but I just don't feel up to it, which means...I'll have to do it tomorrow when everyone else in the entire world will be doing theirs. I'd pass on it altoghther but I have to have some clean towels and sheets and whatnot for Cory's pals that are coming into town this weekend.

So I'm on my own for the most part this weekend. Cory has his company xmas party tonight which significant others are not invited to.(I know, weird, right?) So I think I'm gonna go see Closer at the Cine12 in Evanston after work. This movie will probably make me extremely pensive, so it's a "see it by myself" kind of flick. And of course, there is the lure of popcorn!

No word on the show I just auditioned for but my co-teacher at work, who is an actress herself, just landed a role with her husband, who is also an actor, in Uncle Vanya at the Apple Tree Theater this summer. (They are good friends with the director. Handy, isn't it?) And yesterday she said she had been thinking that I would be great in the show and I should bring her my P/R so she could pass it on to the director which would hopefully at least land me an audition. And that, my friends, would be amazing. I mean getting to do some Chekhov...at a good theater...where they PAY their actors...now this is my kind of show!

And now it is time to get out of 50 layers of clothes I had to sleep in because the heater was, for whatever reason, just not working last night. So charming!

Happy weekend!

-listening to more sad Damien Rice music

I locked myself out of my apt yesterday. Such a treat for me. I walked out the back door, locking it from the inside (turning the little lock) then stepped out, shut the door and INSTANTLY realized I hadn't grabbed my keys...or my phone. I tried to credit card my way in but to no avail.
Luckily I had been planning on going to target on my way to work so I had stepped out early, which gave me enough time to take the train in and only be 10 minutes late. And luckily I had my wallet so I could get cash to ride the train.

But overall, SO ANNOYING! It's such a sickening feeling when it hits you, and like most people I kept rechecking my pockets, rechecking my purse, rechecking my jacket...my keys just HAD to be somewhere besides locked inside my apartment.....Nope.

That was my day.

Oh, and my callback went great. Fabulous actually, which of course means nothing, but at least I can feel good about it if I don't get the role. But one of these days I'm gonna get into a shoe, or a show...a show would be good, too. (A shoe does sound kind of fun, though. I love typos.)

Okay, time to get my head out of the clouds and on with my day.

-listening to The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice which is now the preview music for the movie Closer, which I must see this weekend since I will have a lot of free time to my little old self.